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stolen from playthevillan [Dec. 15th, 2004|11:41 am]
John Dudley
[mood |huh?]
[music |the worlds smalles violin playin...]

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Sean
2. Batman
3. Greenhead

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. S10darkascanb
2. ozzman1090
3. xxxmistake

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My ability to speak up
2. My sense of humor
3. My back

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my lack of upper body strength
2. My inability to spell
3. My torso.

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Irish
2. Scandanavian (czech german and some others im sure)
3. Italian

THREE RANDOM THINGS ABOUT YOU:
1. I dont like drinking water
2. I come from a broken home
3. I used to have a mullet and HATED rap music

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Life
2. Spiders
3. being alone

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. My glasses
2. underwear
3. a shirt

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. grey sweat pants
2. H.A.S.T.E. T shirt
3. purple boxers (thats everything)

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. Becoming a cop
2. commit to a workout plan
3. Drive north to maine

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
1. Truth
2. Lust
3. Communication

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE
1. I made a girl pregnant
2. I have ridden in the back of a police car cuffed
3. i've hurt myself on purpose

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same) THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. attitude
2. smile
3. eyes

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. let go of the past
2. say everything on my mind
3. squat 600lbs

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Driving
2. hikeing
3. welding

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. cry
2. do
3. fix life

THREE CAREERS YOU'VE CONSIDERED;
1. Teacher
2. Mechanic
3. Cop

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Poland/austria
2. Ireland
3. Florida Keys

THREE KID'S NAMES:
1. shelby
2. Sean jr.
3. kristy

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Feel Accomplished
2. Be recognized for a beautiful work of art
3. Move back to TX
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its a sad sad world [Dec. 9th, 2004|04:21 pm]
John Dudley
[mood |crushed]
[music |Pantera : Cemetary Gates]

they killed dimebag, hte guitarist from Pantera....why? i mean one of the realist mother fuckin normal guys ever and you kill him on stage with a gun in front of all his loyal fans. thats sick. FUCK. gayness. well today i got 2 shots in the neck and let me tell you i felt great. now not so much but before...WOW pretty amazing. eh i dont know what i wanted to write but yea im sad that we lost dimebag......RIP
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(no subject) [Dec. 6th, 2004|10:20 am]
John Dudley
woot woot one is done

these are the unrealistics.....

1) enough money to start a checking accout

2)1 of these http://www.dakotadigital.com/Detail.cfm/-/Category=105/PartNumber=SEN-03-5/product.htm and 4 of these http://www.dakotadigital.com/Detail.cfm/-/Category=105/PartNumber=SEN-03-1/product.htm for use with the next thing

3) Dakota digital gauges http://www.dakotadigital.com/Detail.cfm/-/Category=144/PartNumber=ODY-19-4/product.htm black annodized finish blue display

the following go to the truck and are in order of importance

4) 4 of these http://www.suicidedoors.com/products/smc_valves-38.htm

5) this http://www.suicidedoors.com/products/s10_front_airbag_cups.htm

6) 2 of these http://www.suicidedoors.com/products/2500_firestone_airbags.htm

7) this http://www.suicidedoors.com/products/s10_cb-xmember.htm

8) Sheet metal for my truck so i can finish the bed

9) rear shocks for my truck

10) front shocks for my truck----Done already
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(no subject) [Dec. 1st, 2004|09:46 pm]
John Dudley


grandpa 1958 peekskill NY Amazing



i love grandpa i need to get a recent picture of him at the same spot for comparative reasons...
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woot woot bark at the moon [Nov. 27th, 2004|10:21 pm]
John Dudley
werewolf
Werewolves of folklore differ greatly from modern
renditions seen in movies and shows. People
believed there were many ways to become
werewolves, such as drinking rainwater
collected in a wolf's pawprint, eating meat
gnawed on by a wolf, or being born with a full
set of teeth or covered in a caul. And unlike
movie werewolves, werewolves of old were
oftentimes harmless and highly honorable!

As a werewolf, you are loyal, strong and honorable,
and you will protect all you hold dear with
your very life. Although you are not a violent
individual at heart, you will fight for what
you believe in. You are a good friend and truly
are a wonderful person to be around.


Who is your inner Shapeshifter?
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just another day in hollywoood [Nov. 17th, 2004|09:31 am]
John Dudley
its 931 am i want to change my LJ font but i dont know how. its another day of playing cheauffer for tom tom which is all good. tomorrow is back to the nuerologist day. YAY! rachel is upset bout family stuff and i can relate to her so much b/c our situation is very similar. it feels good to help someone else out in venting and dealing with it. its really important to vent about it b/c when it builds up for to long it becomes very destructive (i speak from experiance) hopefully she realizes im here to help anytime, i try to be there for all my friends all the time. my lil sister is a small ball of emotional distress and im not sure what to do with her. im torn between my responsibilities as myself and a boyfried etc etc, and my responsibilities as a big brother and a friend. my hands are shaking as i type all this and i dont know why. hopefully our lives will all take a turn for the better but they may turn worse first but there is always a beautiful sunset on the horizon.
"the path is long and hard the struggle is true and the reason is pure fight through the adversity to reach self..."
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4hrs 1 minute beat that [Nov. 2nd, 2004|11:46 am]
John Dudley
ok so i just go back from martins WOOT WOOT that was amazing. 4hrs 1 minute you wish you had it like that thank god jen let me take her car b/c i dont think the van woulda made that trip, i forgot how shitty a a trip it is. 8 hrs alone in a car lets you reflect quite a bit and in all my reflection i realized i have alot of shit to do. this weekend was fun i raced jen threw sparks from tires drove the sentra rachel came over rob and aaron came over tom was here jen got dressed up all nice and pretty like and martins a maniac more on teh weekend later today but i gotta shower and jet.......
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wow look over there rabies!!! [Oct. 28th, 2004|10:32 am]
John Dudley
ok so yesterday i get this phone call, "yo X police just killed you cousin livin in the projects.." no let me stop the DMX im like posessed , well the phone call was grandpa sayin sean i am in trouble. i was like what? whats wrong. he says the station wagon is broke and im at OTB so i went and rescued him drove the broken car home. that killed a bunch of my day so BLAH. then we came home and played Grand Theft Auto San Andreas...OMG i love it the whole story and shit so far is awsome. i really need a playstation 2 and that game along with some others that are comin out this year!!! awsome gamers year. Rob hung out and acted normal and he put me on to an AMAZING song. apparently lil jon trick daddy and twista sampled crazy train (ozzy song) and made an awsome song. you can take the white guy out the hood but ill always be hood inside Nukka HOLLA sorry yea i still havent fixed the weight machine. yea yea i know stop being lazy. my arms are so tired and today i gotta go fight with the lawnmower guy about my dads log splitter. blah blah blah shitmonkeys.. i would like to have that check now please money would be nice and the neck hurting go away that would be nice too bkhfgvlkjsdfsdv shit i cant type anymore or i just dont want to blah i hate the shit i feel i need a new outlet someone i can talk to since martin isnt here or he just doesnt want to hear it i cant gauge him without him here and i am just gonna have a mental breakdown soon FUCK
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why isntthere a hotwheels community?? [Oct. 25th, 2004|10:38 am]
John Dudley
Yea so jen tells me i dont write enough in my entries so for now on i am going to ramble onabout senseless things so she has something to read!! HA HA anyways we had a pretty uneventful weekend. I did however with the help of tom manage to get my truck semi-driveable and i have new pics and i will try to post one

yay i cant wait to finish up mounting the rear shocks and stuff so i cna drive it. Driving it before everyone would look as i raised it and dropped it and stuff. I AM AN ATENTION WHORE yup i sure am and i need some attention. i miss having the cool school ride and stuff. things are just broing without my truck and i ahve so much money in it im scared to think about it. seriously guys i should stop or something. i also think i need to take some pictures of my new hotwheels collection. that would be cool. and today is monday so i should be getting my van back!!!1 wooo wooo wooo, i need a car bad. being in the house all the time is like rediculous. i cant take it anymore. my neck still hurts too btw altho i have stopped wearing my neck brace 24/7 to see if i can deal with the pain. so far it still sucks i just dont think i can get used to this kind of pain. its like annoying really disorienting pain and i dont like it!!. i need to fix the weight machine its been broken for a while and its so easy to fix i dont know what i am waiting for. just lazy i guess. the police exam is on december 4th and jens cousin is taking it to, also i hear that you get hired into the town you live in first if they are hiring. thats kinda shitty because my town suck and the pay sux too. plus i dont wanna live in peekskill forever. i want to be out of here, i dont think its good to raise kids here the town is steadily going down hill. its sad. Grandma and grandpa have lived here since like the 50's. it was nice back then, it was even ok when i was young kinda, well maybe not. its hard to think of living anywhere else but here tho. in NY ive been in this house almost all my life. i did do that time in TX and some small time in mahopac and carmel but my heart has always been here, the grandparents have always been here but what happens when they arent here? will i stil feel i need to be here? will i still be able to live here? could i really leave? oh man so many doubts and such, who would really go with me and where would i go? i asked jen once if she would go to TX with me right after we got back last time and she said no. i wonder if she really means that like say if i lost grams and gramps or got a job offer there like a really good one or i simply culdnt take ny anymore would she really not come with me? i understand her position and all, not leaving her family and such but i would be doing the same, leaving my family and my friends making the sacrafice for me. is it okay for her to say no? then would that be it? i mean we talk serious about are relationship but should it hurt me that she said no? does it mean that she doesnt love me enough? im not saying thats how i feel but they are real questions in my head. and im not saying im going to TX but what if i really wanted to? "here i am alone confused and full of questions"sometimes i wonder if i am what jen settled for, like she holds on to me because she feels im all she could get. i really wish i knew what she thought of herself, us, her life, her future, her plans, our plans, i want to know why she cant talk to me, why she lets herself down, puts herself down. i want to know why she is the way she is and way she looks so sad and why her smiles went away and shit like that......enough of that


these wheels are for sale by a kin in jersey with tires for like 500 or 600 bucks i kinda like them and think they would look good on my truck


time for a shower and to draw or something
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yup [Oct. 20th, 2004|01:48 pm]
John Dudley
well today i will go outside...yup ok illl write more later
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